Wednesday, 17 October 2012

Menanti malam...

 Senja di Universiti Beach, UMS, Kota Kinabalu

 Jackie Ho, Sharifah Halimah, Helen Lasimbang, Siew Cheng, Carol Lim and me
Such a great day... effective workshop, productive discussion and  wonderful dinner... Terima kasih Carol!
We should sing loudly...
 Oh Carol, I'm but a fool... lalalala...


The Cochrane Systematic Review Workshop, Oct 16-18, 2012

 
Detty, Jackie Ho, Siew Cheng, Sharifah Halimah with 34 Workshop Participants (coming from Malaysia, Brunei and Burma)

Saturday, 6 October 2012

In the corner of nowhere...


... ... ...
Don't kill my passion...
Just grasp me...

... ... ...
Don't  ruin my heart...
Just release me...

... ... ...
Don't destroy my life...
Just leave me...

... ... ...
Grasp me...
Release me...
Leave me...

... ... ...
In the corner of nowhere...




Saat sendiri merenungi tahun ke 46 keberadaanku... 
Berjalan tanpa arah, menikmati senja dan malam yang tiada usai...
Engkau yang Maha Pemberi Nikmat, kubersujud dalam ketiadaanku, dalam kehampaanku, dalam kealpaanku... 
Terimalah perserahanku yang tiada pernah nyata, dalam kepasrahan yang semu...

Thanks to the Universe, which serves me like a princess...
*Kebetulan hanya hiasan manusia, karena Allah Maha Perencana*

Soon I will be away...


Soon I will be away...
What I’ve been done so far is not always the thing that I want to do...
But, I believe that Allah will always give me the best forever...
To strengthen me...
To encourage me..
In many ways... to live in this beautiful life...

Soon I will be away...
What I’ve been done so far is not enough to accompany me to meet U and u...
But, I believe that Allah will help me to fulfill my days...
With loves...
With guidance...
In many ways... to have another  beautiful life...

*Sydney, 6 Oct 2012, on my birthday’s morning meditation*

Kata terimakasih tidak cukup untuk mengungkapkan seluruh perasaan yang ada dalam dada ini, untuk mamah and my beloved children -for your loves and for giving me the strength to pass these hard days-... Untuk papap dan mas Yo, semoga kita dapat berkumpul di sana, forever... Allahumaghfirlahu-warhamhu-waafihi-wa’fuanhu... Aamiin YRA

Monday, 1 October 2012

Alasan untuk kembali menulis...

  • have something to say
  • to change practice
  • promote thought or debate
  • allow examination of your work
  • "fame and the love of beautiful women"
  • money
  • career advancement
  • to entertain/divert/amuse
  • to educate
  • to console
  • to find what you think
  • to achieve precision in your thinking
  • to feel better
Emily, Malinee, Ruth, Denise, Me, Sharon

Hmmm... yang terakhir rasanya emang bener... feel better after writing something which are in our mind... Promise to start writing again... nge-blog, nge-efbi, nge-twit, ngerjain buku yang gak selesai-selesai *mulai aja belum, hehehe*... ngerampungin systematic review yang gak pernah ada habisnya...  Kata Richard gak ada yang salah dengan apa yang kita tulis -di media manapun- yang salah ya yang baca... hehehe... mau-maunya baca tulisan yang gak jelas juntrungannya seperti yang dibaca sekarang ini... Jangan bilang blog, facebook dan tweet tidak ada gunanya, itu adalah media sosial terbaik untuk terus belajar menulis... so nunggu apalagi? ayo menulis menulis dan menulis... eh salah mengetik, mengetik dan mengetik, ini lebih tepat saat ini.... Anyway, napak tilas ke NZ ini membuka mata kepala dan mata hati untuk terus menulis...eh, mengetik... :) 

Auckland War Memorial Museum, 20120930


Getting published...



  • Please introduce yourself, your name, what you do, where you come from?
  • All together:
    • What do you read?
      • NEJM, Lancet, Economist, local newspaper, poetry, novel
    • Do you feel guilty about the amount of reading you do?
    • How much of what you might read do you read?
    • How many of you have published? Where? How much?
    • Do you blog?
    • Are you in Facebook?
    • Do you Tweet?

 With Richard Smith, the Former editor, BMJ
Auckland, 20120930, 09.30-15.30

Huuuaaaaaaaa, where have you been Detty? Rasanya seperti babak belur digebukin orang sekampung, saat ikut Richard Smith Workshop on "Getting published in high impact journals". Pertanyaan demi pertanyaan yang dilontarkan Richard, melebihi sembilu yang mengiris kepingan hati... Well, I do have blog, I -sometimes- do open Facebook as a looker, I -often- goes to Tweet to get idea what's going on out there.... but, mengapa banyak hal yang biasanya dilakukan sepenuh hati, hilang begitu saja... pesiar ke negeri antah berantah?

Many thanks for your fabulous encouragement, Richard... I really need some refreshment and exaggerated support... Read-Write-Read-Write-Read-Write-Read... Read... Read...Write... Write... Write... anything, anywhere...


You write something: 200 words in 10 minutes--anything!!!
Ups, I did it.... :)

Pulang...


Seberapa jauhkah perjalanan ini harus kulalui...
Kuingin pulang dalam dekapan Mu...

*Edisi lebay, hiks... Ingat mamah dan anak-anak di rumah... Ingat tanggung jawabku yang besar atas keluarga kecilku... Sementara badan ini semakin erat bercengkerama dengan rasa sakit, yang terus mendera... Ya Allah, Ya Habibi, semoga sakitku, dapat menjadi perekat jiwaku pada Mu dan penghapus seluruh dosa-dosaku... Aamiin YRA*